The saddest

Where do I start, I pretty much had a tortured life, from the age of 2. You name it, I've been through it. One physically abusive marriage, he sole me for cocaine, and one mentally abusive. (No wonder women change over).

But I am divorced now. Did work for an escort service for a short time, as a way to pay the bills, but it's not a pretty way to make your money.

And I'm a little old for that now, unless I had a work-out trainer.

I love music, I'll never give it up. I love electronica/trance. Alternative rock music, some hip hop music, (I have a 14 year old daughter). She is the love of my life.

I haven't had a relationship or even a DATE in way too long. And it really worries me.

I've stayed in too long. Maybe I'm afraid of what I'll find.

I love reality tv.

I'm loveable, sexy, uninhibited, sweet, kind, excentric, hot, and very sensual. I feel like I'm going to waste, and it does scare me.

I, like Tila, want to find love, and I don't know who it will be with.